yeah I think I’m around that stage too, I really don’t care for my appearance in that way too much but I try to comply in public to keep my job

i might dress and put a wig or something on halloween, my husband doesnt really care that much on my gender, he is a self declared pansexual and we joke a lot around me being trans or not

it’s difficult to put myself in any strict gender when i barely feel like performing as a person and it looks like a pain in the ass to perform femininity (i’m also very tall so performing masc is just existing for me)