I didn’t know about ADHD growing up and neither did my parents, grandparents or my teachers apparently so my first 2 years in school meant that if i was unruly in class then me and anyone else would be pulled up by our sideburns in front of the whole class by a 70 year old fat whore which i still hate to this day and then there was also a possibility i would face the wrath of the belt when i got home.
This was in the Balkans and being a kid around some of the rednecks there in the 90s was a fucking nightmare.
Some of you may think i am being harsh on them but nah fuck off, the only thing i got from that was self loathing and suicidal thoughts and even though they tell me now that they are proud of me and how i managed to get a good life together i still have the same thoughts as i did back then that i am a worthless piece of shit that they should have strangled when i was born and when life gets tough i think about slitting my throat or some other suicidal shit to CALM MYSELF DOWN because that means i would be free of this shitty existence and the worst part is i have gotten used to that.
Live with your demons until they kill you.
Also i don’t smoke, drink or take meds.
Next year i’ll be 40, wonder how long i can keep bulldozing my way through life like this.
From a similar experience I can say you have plenty left in you. This shit also made us strong and unwilling to easily surrender. And ya’ll better hope hauntings aren’t real cause I’m gonna come back and get my ghostly revenge if given the chance.
I didn’t know about ADHD growing up and neither did my parents, grandparents or my teachers apparently so my first 2 years in school meant that if i was unruly in class then me and anyone else would be pulled up by our sideburns in front of the whole class by a 70 year old fat whore which i still hate to this day and then there was also a possibility i would face the wrath of the belt when i got home.
This was in the Balkans and being a kid around some of the rednecks there in the 90s was a fucking nightmare.
Some of you may think i am being harsh on them but nah fuck off, the only thing i got from that was self loathing and suicidal thoughts and even though they tell me now that they are proud of me and how i managed to get a good life together i still have the same thoughts as i did back then that i am a worthless piece of shit that they should have strangled when i was born and when life gets tough i think about slitting my throat or some other suicidal shit to CALM MYSELF DOWN because that means i would be free of this shitty existence and the worst part is i have gotten used to that.
Live with your demons until they kill you.
Also i don’t smoke, drink or take meds.
Next year i’ll be 40, wonder how long i can keep bulldozing my way through life like this.
From a similar experience I can say you have plenty left in you. This shit also made us strong and unwilling to easily surrender. And ya’ll better hope hauntings aren’t real cause I’m gonna come back and get my ghostly revenge if given the chance.