Thanks. You’re right, obviously.
I even know what not to do, but I still tend to do it.
I’m half-functioning when I’m in this deep, which makes everything even worse.

Anyway…
I took a half day off today just to spend some time in the present with my bestie and I haven’t felt this relieved in weeks.
Little steps.

Thanks.

You matter independent of the work you do for others.

I do need to re-internalize this from time to time.
Like, rationally speaking, I do know this.
I’m more than a fruit to extract juice from and then be discarded.
In the heat of the moment though, I put others’ needs above my own, which means sometimes I’ll forget myself in the process.

And yea, I’m blessed to have met my platonic soulmate, although somewhat late in life.

If I’m honest for a sec, I’ve been struggling lately.
Work has been super intense and nothing I can do ever feels like it’s enough.
Deep down, I know it’s not a me problem, hell, I’m the best damn person for this particular task, it’s just… a lot. That also means I’ll have to lead this thing for a month, away from home this time.
People see how I fix things and think it’s easy for me.
It’s not. I’m just used to making shit work at the cost of my own self.
I’m tired of paying that toll and I don’t know how much longer I can keep it together.

I recognize this present overwork-dragon facing me, I’ve been down this road before and I know how wholly it can consume me. Not even in a vore way either.
Being away also means there’s nobody to fuck my brains out or use me as a toy to take my mind off this thing.

Still, silver linings… this time I’m lucky enough to have my soul-friend-bestie along.
It doesn’t make it less bullshit, but at least we’re going insane together.
Anyway, idk why I’m dumping a wall of text here.
Gotta get back to it… peace.

All this to say, if restarting the router “fixes” things there’s likely a deeper, more unsettling problem happening that’s not being diagnosed.

Odds are it’s just some memory leak.
Having to reboot every 2-3 month isn’t too far fetched for these ISP modem/router.

Shattered Pixel Dungeon

I’m a fan of Noctua myself.

Milking a dead horse.
~Disney

Agreed, but less so than corpses disappearing under eyes.

Oh no, anyway.
Reddit’s been dead for a while.

The old jank engine is honestly pretty good for atmospheric storytelling.
Sure, Cyberpunk is shiny and all, but there’s something about Bethesda.
Idk how to explain, corpses in Fallout never despawn. That item you hid in the bush? it’s still there 300h later. It has a certain persistence that isn’t that common.
It can also feel stale real quick though.
Especially when you get into janky bugs.
But all this needs an interesting premise, story and vision.

I don’t have much hopes for whatever they release next.
Nor from any AAA.
Games is art and art is incompatible with the corpo mindset of most game companies these days.

I’d rather play something that was made with passion than with greed.

I’ve had both forever. It’s been a while, but I remember switching without much issues.

Droid-ify still shows permissions

Rolls 1d6 psychic damage.

I have more respect for any homeless person than for this shitbag.
We should ask his mom for a postpartum abortion.

If it was no longer needed… it shouldn’t matter if it’s removed.
To want it removed means it is needed.

Ikr, I can’t relate to Vegas-enjoyers, even before Trump.
Unless you’re into fake gold, cigarette smoke, tire dust, concrete, gambling, objectification.
I don’t believe in Hell, but Vegas is straight up nightmarish.
It’s like a pizza oven over there, the concrete radiates heat well after the sunset.
They abuse AC everywhere to a level where you’re either freezing inside or cooking outdoors.
The strip itself could be pedestrian focused but it’s instead car-centric for no reason.
Trucks go up and down the strip for the sole purpose of pulling an ad-trailer-TV thing.
Crossing the street is potentially a 5-10 minute affair that takes you through a mall because reasons.
It’s basically an incarnation of the worst of capitalism and consumerism in the most unsustainable way in the most stupid place.
I hate the place with a passion and I cannot imagine willfully spending time there when one can be literally anywhere else instead.

I shower 360 noscope style

I mean, my phone charges at 60W. Granted, it’s not charging 24/7 but 50W is pretty good indeed.

It’s conveniently on Columbus Day, but whatever fuck Columbus.

Great.
I wouldn’t go even if I was offered a free trip all expenses paid.
It’s gaudy, fake, ugly, unsustainable and stupid.
Even without all the fascism, it’s still the worst.