It’s been pretty awful for the most part to be honest. I’ve been getting random erections again so I think I need to up my E dose (I’m DIYing, injectable EEn monotherapy), but I’m kind of flying blind on that as my GP won’t do bloods and I can’t afford private tests right now so I’m just gonna have to up my dose and hope for the best.
I was meant to have a second date today and she flaked on me this morning with no real reason which just leads me to believe she got a better offer (we met through a dating app), plus a friend who has been supportive of me who I really want to support and be there for in return has left me on read for 3 days so I’m feeling pretty adrift and abandoned right now 💔
Yeah, I don’t mind them too much when they’re intentional (i.e. during sex/masturbation) but at any other time they’re awful, I use gaffs to tuck and the result of an erection in a gaff is both dysphoric and painful 😔
I’ve been on EEn for 8 months, currently at a dose of 5.5mg every 7 days (I started at 5mg and upped it after the first 3 months) which felt like it was working decently well for T suppression up until the last couple of weeks, but my mood’s been all over the place (and not in the inconvenient-but-affirming way of bursts of happy or sad tears I was getting for a while) on top of the physical symptoms.
And I know you’re right about the date and my friend, the logical part of my brain agrees, but I’m a chronic overthinker when it comes to these things and it’s tough to silence the anxiety/depression thoughts 😥
Thanks so much for the thoughtful response, I really appreciate it 💜