I met my internet best friend this summer and I think that’s how she felt about me.
We had an okay time together but our friendship doesn’t feel the same anymore (in a bad way) and it’s 100% my fault because I was agressively insecure all the time. I was meeting someone from the internet for the very first time and it was also the very first time I left my country completely on my own.
However, that trip and meetup changed me a lot for the better. I feel like I matured a lot after that.
I hope she will forgive me and give me a second chance. I will also very much understand if she doesn’t.
Edit (Oct 24 2025): I told her my feelings in July and she said that she has no desire to continue our friendship and I haven’t talked to her since.
I got mine very recently and I’m so happy about it. I’m trying to get my family members to get it as well but they refuse to, it’s upsetting.
My mom: “Come here, I won’t hit you”.