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  • wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.comtoLemmy Shitpost@lemmy.worldDo we ?
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    22 hours ago

    Spoken like someone who has never had to deal with those thoughts.

    Nice baseless assumption fuckboy.

    For those unfamiliar, those are anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds. Mine.

    I’ve already spouted my personal psychological issues across other comments. I’m so sorry that I didn’t take the time to qualify my statement with an essay about my personal bullshit here.


    I’m truly sorry about what you’re going through. If you feel that way then you aren’t getting the help you need. Notably, you also already have your clear reason not to end it. You should focus on that and work to build more reasons not to instead of getting pissy at an internet stranger for calling people out on glorification of suicide.


    To put this as simple as fucking possible, in incredibly vague and simplistic terms (that are still true by personal fucking experience)

    • Repeated self talk about how you don’t want to be alive and the like isn’t going to help you or anyone else who is having these feelings. It reinforces those thought patterns that you clearly already understand are not healthy.

    • Being able to identify when you are having those disordered thoughts and doing your best to turn away from them helps reinforce against those patterns. It gets easier over time.

    • Posting suicidal ideation content into the void of the internet does not ultimately help you or others with handling or moving past those feelings

    There is value in knowing you’re not alone in your feelings, and humor reaches farther than other means, sure. But the internet as a whole is clearly far past that point, and I’m getting increasingly more exhausted sitting by and watching this shit be normalized.


    I’ve been living with ADHD my whole life (close to 35 years now). Depression (officially) for around 15. Anxiety for around a decade.

    There’s at least a five year span of my life that effectively isn’t there. There’s still a small voice in the back of my head afraid I’ll either wake up one morning and be back there, or I’ll come back to my senses and find that the past decade has been all delusion as my car is plummeting off the local bridge or into oncoming traffic lanes from what was a constant battle every day not to just fucking do it.

    And I’m not talking about the relatively “normal” time sink from the covid lockdowns.

    I have a mental list of various options for how I’d do it if it came to it, backed by actual fucking research. I did back then too, and was fucked up enough to not care anymore about the hurt to those around me or the potential pain to myself from doing it in a dumb as hell way like a traffic accident. Good way to end up still alive but crippled physically and financially for the rest of your life.


    Anyway.

    One of the hardest things to accept is that there is some logic and soundness to the dumbasses saying “have you just tried not being x?”.

    It’s not that simple, true. People who don’t have these issues will never understand, true. It will be some of the most unrewarding, soul draining shit you’ve ever attempted, and there’s no shame if you can’t get there yet or if you can’t do it on your own.

    But here’s the worst part: they aren’t entirely wrong.

    You build your healthy coping mechanisms and your psychological toolkit to fight against this shit through constant neverending effort to work against the bad internal shit. The more you work against it, the stronger those tools get. Eventually, like repeated practice of martial arts or musical instruments over years, the things that took concious effort will begin to become unconcious. The equivalent of mental muscle memory, for lack of a phrase for it that doesn’t sound silly.

    You’ll stumble. You’ll fail. You’ll have to start back over from what feels like (and may actually be) square one. But that work against it is ultimately the core of any way you’re going to be able to keep moving forward.

    It will never be as simple as “just don’t be sad, lol”, but some aspect of your journey out of it will have to come from personal effort to not be what you are today.


    On top of all that?

    This isn’t even an actually funny joke about not wanting to exist anymore. “haha, I don’t want to live anymore even though they do! Rofl lmao.”

    Boo! Get some better material.


  • wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.comtoLemmy Shitpost@lemmy.worldDo we ?
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    23 hours ago

    I think a lot of people doing the funny haha suicidal ideation thing forget that it’s entirely within their power to opt-out of life if they really mean it.

    Edit: and the evidence that you’re still here would happily indicate that you don’t truly mean it. So could you all please just cut it out?


  • there is then zero switching cost outside

    Tell me again how you’ve never supported an email service migration. I’m delighted that you haven’t, but it’s obvious.

    Also, I love when people pull a “draw the rest of the owl” with tech they’ve never been up in the guts of.

    Emails also come in standardized formats that can be downloaded and transferred to a new provider, too.

    Oh, you sweet sweet thing. I remember when I believed that technical specs were reliable and things were interoperable because documentation said they were.

    I can still see their tears.


    Maybe it truly is that easy with other providers to switch from one to another, but Outlook, and especially the Exchange backend underneath (both the effectively discontinued self-hosted server version and the Azure-managed Exchange Online) are a special kind of jank.

    There isn’t a special layer or kind of hell for whoever designed it. There isn’t even a specific hell in and of itself.

    Whatever exists after death for the designers of Outlook and Exchange is something so much worse than hell that it’s categorically different from anything able to be conceptualized by humans. We don’t have words to even begin to describe the gulf between comprehendable human thought and what awaits for them.









  • Doesn’t have to be railroading for this sort of thing to occur. You can’t out-plan effectively infinite options, and it’s important to set a baseline of expectations not only of the DM but also of the players.

    Shockingly, some players don’t understand the basic “find a reason for your character to travel with the others” concept unless it’s spelled out to them. There’s also some players that will intentionally play as though they’re allergic to main plot threads, which can be fine if that’s established going in but a pain in the ass if there was an understanding that the DM might be able to prepare shit in advance and not always instantaneously adlib.

    Like don’t agree to Descent to Avernus if you don’t have any intention of going to Avernus.


    Sorry, I get you were probably joking, but I’ve also been in some groups that just didn’t work out because players weren’t straightforward about what they were looking for.


  • wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.comtoLinux@programming.devWindows 11 WSL
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    2 days ago

    Just run the Windows device using wired internet on a different (and isolated) subnet from everything else of yours and turn off wifi and bluetooth on it. Use a wired headset or a dedicated dongle like Jabra has for their headsets. That would prevent it from identifying other devices nearby.

    Beyond that, just don’t do any personal shit on your work device. If you’re providing your own Windows work device, then do it in a VM as already said.

    If your workplace allows WSL, then the main benefit is you could use more familiar software/tools through it. Your workplace is likely to be doing a hell of a lot more data collection than Microsoft anyway.


  • I built right as the nVidia 3000 series came out, and when I wasn’t able to get one in the first month or two after release I said fuck it and bought one of the last new 2070 Supers I could find. Hooray for availability alerts.

    I’ve been wanting to upgrade parts for like a year now, because it’s just starting to have issues with higher graphics settings on 1440p (had 1080p monitors when I bought it). Glad I went with 64GB RAM (DDR4, as was the standard of the time) and a little above mid range on the CPU. It’s absolutely fucking absurd to me that the parts that are still available (mobo, PSU, and GPU aren’t anymore) have effectively held their price point.




  • You probably already know, but for the crowd:

    Usually thin clients are clients that remotely connect into a central server that runs their VM, and the VM actually handles the compute. Like older mainframe and endpoint setups.

    There’s still some minor compute hardware/resources on the thin client itself, but it’ll probably be more lightweight than expected. Maybe equivalent to an early model raspi?


  • wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.comtoYou Should Know@lemmy.worldOn Greed
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    3 days ago

    I didn’t say anything about self promotion because I don’t usually have issues with that.

    This isn’t self promotion. As I said, this is pure advertisement.

    Self promotion would be someone who is or has been engaging with the community or the wider fediverse at all that does something like “Hey, I did some research on this topic and there’s some things I think people should know about it so I wrote a blog post. Let me know what you think!”

    This also isn’t just out in the open. Why would this person set a different display name on their account unless they wanted to add a small delay in people catching onto this? Instead of a direct “this is the site I run”, their profile has some weird promotional wank about the site and a link. It’s not direct and up front.

    Just… any attempt at bare minimum effort to indicate that this person had any intention of actually engaging with the community instead of dropping a link and running would have made this more palatable.


    Edit: Maybe they did engage some, I can see their profile shows three comments now as well as this post, but I can’t see those. I’ve already blocked them, for better or worse.