I fucking hate my past self. I’d punch myself in the face if i could. Why i waited to long to do the shit im doing today, i have no words.
If younger me could see me now he’d probably be pretty disappointed. I’m still really not sure if that’s because I’ve done anything wrong, or if the world is so fucked it’s just impossible so succeed.
15-Yr-Old-Me: “I’m going to do something stupid to impress my friends”
25-Yr-Old-Me: “I’m going to do something stupid to impress my girlfriend”
35-Yr-Old-Me: “Kids, this is very dangerous. But also incredibly cool. So stand back and don’t tell your mother.”
45yo me: jesus fuck who raised you kids
I wish 15yo semi incel me who believed he’d be alone for his entire life, could see me today.
He wouldn’t be able to stop high fiving me. I have nothing, really, except a beautiful wonderful wife and while the entire world seems to burn around us, we are so fucking happy together.
Let’s be real,would he high-5 or would he kick you in the balls for perceived gloating about having someone?
Congrats man!! That’s awesome!
True, the only person I hate more than myself is my past self lol
30-Yr-old me: “Give the kid a break, asshole.”
My life is this meme every 5 years. But cringing at your old self just means you’re growing, right?
Me looking back at 20yr old me who sold stock for the company I worked for 5 weeks before we were bought out by a large teleco company for $4 a share. When hired I was granted 200k options at .14c each and sold for .30 each. Bought a house with that downpayment, could have bought 4 with the 800k… or just invested with 11% returns for 25 years (-50% for divorce)…
Don’t feel too bad buddy. You could have been me, who sold 74 BTC for $35 each to recoup mining costs back in 2013. At least I got a free graphics card for all my troubles after all was said and done.
We don’t talk about BTC… cough cough over 1000 and went, “well that’s boring” and deleted the wallet. Wasn’t even worth a pizza but looked cool and I had extra compute at the office that was just doing SETI work.
But I would have sold that shit too the moment it hit $1.
Couldn’t have known
Am I the only one that doesn’t have that experience. I’m 30 now, and when I look back, all I can think is that I was right all along.
I mean, I don’t think I was wrong about everything. I think I got some things (many things) right early, but the way I expressed them or defended them or lived them was a little obnoxious. For example, I’m still an atheist/agnostic, but I was that kind of atheist that cannot meet a religious person without pointing out the contradictions and absurdities of their beliefs. That hurt people, sank them into existential crises, and then I understood my method was excessive and could cause harm. Those kind of things are the ones causing the “yeez…”/cringe from the meme (for me).
Pathway to depression. Look forward in anticipation, not back in regret. Or just stay in the moment and be peaceful.
