I’m sorry to hear that. I agree, capitalism’s destructive contradictions force untold horrors upon the world. Do you have an org you work with? Volunteering at a party can really help give optimism and purpose. A better world is possible, and it’s being built in socialist countries already. I feel like you’re letting your pessimism turn towards other countries that frankly aren’t as bad as the west is, and are in many ways progressing humanity forward. It’s our job to make sure that happens, and to stop imperialism and settler-colonialism.

Revolutionary optimism is what keeps me going.