The way I try and look at it when I’m starting to go on a downward spiral about the life I’ve wasted, is that I remind myself that the first ~20 years of my life weren’t even my own. I was born, then I was a toddler crapping in my nappy, then I went to school where I had to put on a uniform and listen to bells and teachers all day.
So basically, even though I’m 40, half of that wasn’t even my own life anyway. It was spent playing a role for the sake of others. And considering that I live in a socially conservative shit hole, it’s no wonder that I took so long to find myself once I was out of school. Or that it had to come from solitude and not from any awareness or encouragement from peers.
All things considered, it could be worse. I could’ve become an honorary boomer that yells at the kids to get off the lawn, in between scrolling conspiracy theories about Jewish space lazers and litter boxes in schools. But I didn’t and now I hopefully have another 40 years still left to live authentically.
The way I try and look at it when I’m starting to go on a downward spiral about the life I’ve wasted, is that I remind myself that the first ~20 years of my life weren’t even my own. I was born, then I was a toddler crapping in my nappy, then I went to school where I had to put on a uniform and listen to bells and teachers all day.
So basically, even though I’m 40, half of that wasn’t even my own life anyway. It was spent playing a role for the sake of others. And considering that I live in a socially conservative shit hole, it’s no wonder that I took so long to find myself once I was out of school. Or that it had to come from solitude and not from any awareness or encouragement from peers.
All things considered, it could be worse. I could’ve become an honorary boomer that yells at the kids to get off the lawn, in between scrolling conspiracy theories about Jewish space lazers and litter boxes in schools. But I didn’t and now I hopefully have another 40 years still left to live authentically.