Oh god I’m 20…maybe it really is because of my age 😆
Maybe my age is to blame. It’s not my fault I’m this way! /s

  • RepleteLocum@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    8·
    1 day ago

    Are you actually in your twenties? I’m approaching it and I’m scared that e won’t “work” soon. I still have to get a bunch of paperwork done and that’s prolly going to take half a year if not more.

    • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      7·
      1 day ago

      Yes, I’m actually 20 😔

      Nonsense, E will work for you. I started at 19 and it’s kinda working. I don’t know your situation, but I’m rooting for you 🩷

      May I ask how old you are? You don’t have to answer. I’m just curious

        • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
          2·
          10 hours ago

          Nah, you’re fine. I started HRT at 19 and 10 months. I started seeking it out the official way 6 months prior. Long wait times…
          At the beginning, I thought I had it good. I thought I had started super early, that I was gonna get super lucky, that my pelvis would widen…well, the dysphoria kicked in. I started seeing all the damage that T has done to me. The damage that is irreversible. And I didn’t feel so lucky anymore, with people here that started at 17, 16 or earlier.

          But I’ll tell you this. I don’t regret starting. Not even a little bit. The only thing I regret is not starting earlier. And so, I guess I’m actually glad I started when I did. I’m glad I didn’t put it off by years and regret it later. And I’m absolutely loving what HRT has been doing for me. In the first couple of months, I was damn sure it was the right thing for me. Super smooth skin, man musk gone, greatly decreased erections, much less oily skin and hair and tiny breast buds, the start of actual, real girl boobs…this is me.

          I can’t tell you if you want it or not. I really can’t. But, I can recommend starting as soon as you can. Repressing and putting it off is unfortunately super common for trans people, but it’s not ideal. The regret later on is crushing. I could have started at 14 and it’s the biggest regret of my life that I didn’t…
          And please don’t fall into the trap of “I won’t pass, so what’s the point?”. Nobody knows if you will pass or not and frankly, it’s not the most important thing in the world. Transitioning will alleviate dysphoria and make you more comfortable in your own body. It will make your body…more you. I know I won’t pass. Still, I’m never stopping HRT, I’d literally rather die. And you might think you won’t pass now, but repressing and waiting to start won’t solve that, in fact, it will only make it worse. There will be more years of irreversible T damage done to your body. And, at least for me…that’s existentially crushing.
          You’re actually quite early. You’re totally fine 💜

          You’ll figure it out 🩷
          Best of luck!
          I’m here if you need anything.