My mom takes away the laptop charging cable to effectively use the battery as a parental control.
Or sometimes take away the modem as punishment.
An like the internet stuff would all get turned off at night so we can’t use the internet at night because we’re supposed to be sleeping lol.
I must’ve been just sad and crying lol, there’s a reason why my brain recorded those into memory.
I think one time I didn’t have access to any electronics, and I got so bored I acutally just randomly found a book just lying around in my house that the library away away for free (Brooklyn Public Library btw, I think…) and I remember one of them is a Harry Potter book, something azkaban… I think that’s why I eventually got interested in the movies (found it “free” online, so it didn’t contribute to the author-who-shall-not-be-named btw). One of the other books I remember reading was Ender’s Game. (I later also watched the movie)
Like they won’t destroy stuff, they’d confiscate, and threaten physical violence instead. Oh fuck, those flashbacks… I kinda have those memories semi-suppressed until prompted… like as-in right now, then I can imagine myself being in that moment, scared, alone, hiding, crying…
Probably why I just never wanted to talk to anyone at school, my life has been in fight-or-flight mode.
Lol I remember when my mom took my wifi adapter on my 360, remembered I had an old laptop my grandma gave me to pull her files off and learned how to bridge a network connection that day xD
My mom takes away the laptop charging cable to effectively use the battery as a parental control.
Or sometimes take away the modem as punishment.
An like the internet stuff would all get turned off at night so we can’t use the internet at night because we’re supposed to be sleeping lol.
I must’ve been just sad and crying lol, there’s a reason why my brain recorded those into memory.
I think one time I didn’t have access to any electronics, and I got so bored I acutally just randomly found a book just lying around in my house that the library away away for free (Brooklyn Public Library btw, I think…) and I remember one of them is a Harry Potter book, something azkaban… I think that’s why I eventually got interested in the movies (found it “free” online, so it didn’t contribute to the author-who-shall-not-be-named btw). One of the other books I remember reading was Ender’s Game. (I later also watched the movie)
Like they won’t destroy stuff, they’d confiscate, and threaten physical violence instead. Oh fuck, those flashbacks… I kinda have those memories semi-suppressed until prompted… like as-in right now, then I can imagine myself being in that moment, scared, alone, hiding, crying…
Probably why I just never wanted to talk to anyone at school, my life has been in fight-or-flight mode.
Lol I remember when my mom took my wifi adapter on my 360, remembered I had an old laptop my grandma gave me to pull her files off and learned how to bridge a network connection that day xD