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I have begun coding my personal website which has been pretty fun recently and also I am doing a lot more when it regards my art; I’ve drawn about nearly three pieces now in under a week!
Also got wicked headphones for Christmas!!!
My wife and I had a productive talk. I actually vocalized that I’ve been thinking of transitioning, which is a massive step for me. Prior to this talk I’ve only told her that I’m questioning my gender identity. She’s been very supportive so far. She’s made it clear that she’ll need a lot of grace and we’ll need some couple’s therapy but overall her response leaves me pretty hopeful.
On the other hand, constant family stuff around holidays always leaves me feeling a lot of self doubt and makes the prospect of eventually coming out seem so intimidating and overwhelming. I just can’t imagine myself ever having the courage to do it with my family or hers.
This week was crazy. I had GRS last week. Wtf? It actually happened. Up until the last hours I was convinced something would still go wrong, but then it just happened. And now I’m a week into recovery and doing really well! The first few days were very hazy and I barely did anything other than doze and scroll Instagram a bit. I’m lucky to have a lot of people visit me which has made the harder days more bearable and since Thursday, I’ve been feeling better almost every day! Today I finished the first of the four books I took for recovery (I Who Have Never Known Men) and loved it. I’ll probably leave the hospital on Thursday which gives me three more days of chilling out and just regaining my strength. But honestly, I already feel better than expected. I can walk fine, reading and concentration are up again and spirits are up as well. Very tough, but good week!
I finally had my initial consult for bottom surgery! Still a few more hoops to jump through, but it should happen some time next year.
People are gendering me female (and acting interested!) even on zero-effort days.
And I’ve just about worked up the courage to visit a lesbian bar over new year 👩❤️👩
So, pretty good <3
