did you touch the computer today? did you make it happy?

you don’t have to :)

it’s like nobody even knows about finger anymore

i’m fine with yap. and i get you.

i got it without a diagnosis or a test by just talking it out with a local doctor who prescribed some stuff “just to see if it would help” and it did. it’s not perfect, i still get episodes, but i can get out of them myself now. i was worried that i would… lose myself, but what actually went away was some of the time that i just spend dissociating or procrastinating. i got more of me. but it makes sense that hrt would have a similar effect, as the stuff i got is also hormonal.

hugboxes are good sometimes because it makes you realise that just because you can doesn’t mean you have to. while it’s true that nobody but you controls your brain chemicals, being told that while full of bad brain chemicals is how you get a spiral going. and that’s when a hugbox comes in handy.

i have been actively working on not being my own worst critic for years at this point. i used to beat myself up over every little mistake, punish myself when i failed at tasks, and go into hiding when people disagreed with me online. being an overachiever with bad motor skills and bad braining skills is a shitshow. so i went into some sort of half-burnout coasting phase. and i used that to think to myself what the point was when the only one who cares is me. it took a long time to get out of that mindset and there are still remnants of it (no real sense of self, defining yourself by what you don’t like…) but i’ve made progress.

that’s why it’s so annoying that the lying thing works. if you’re stuck in a well and people are lowering a bucket, thinking “that bucket isn’t for me, it’s for fetching water”, then you’re going to continue being stuck. but if you think “maybe it is for me”, then you eventually get out.

…that’s the dumbest metaphor i’ve ever written, i think.

i was thinking more the other other way around. if you lie to yourself that you do, eventually the body starts agreeing.

as someone who just recently got medicated for depression and adhd and so couldn’t do the lying thing before due to chemical imbalance, i hate that it works now and that it makes me feel better. but it does, so i do it!

just say the word and we’ll stop :)

and find even worse superlatives >:3 the annoying thing about lying to yourself about your feelings is that it works.

same to you maria, have a nice one!

you choose what you present to the world.

and you sure present cute.

you are allowed to say “curse” on the internet

is that 161mm with the handle?

the game boy player? absolutely. it was basically a full gba, too. you needed a driver disk for the gamecube to find it, but after that the console just idled and handled io passthrough while the peripheral did all the work.

not like those sega hacks who shipped an entire copy of windows for mips just to play their weird shmups.

just drag and drop

oh you’re the thread starter! ahem…

i find the first reply to yours absolutely insane and completely off-base. so i continued in the same vein. turns out the guy was being completely serious.

more than one program

😘

using a computer is bloat when the browser can use it for you. i have a second computer just running selenium to use my computer for me.

using a full-blown operating system to do everything is bloat when the browser can already do it all. just kernel and browser should be enough.

all major browsers have built-in fully functioning video players, ergo they are video players. and most people have a browser running anyway so startup is likely faster than a standalone application. using a separate video player is bloat. same with music players, and text editors, and pdf viewers.

the browser is truly the new emacs.

a separate video player is bloat. just use a browser.

yeah forced encounters are always ass. and nice that you liked altaïr! he’s never coming back.

yeah that’s also a whole genre. i don’t think that’s ever been in court though. i don’t really feel like checking that tbh.