…then remember you ruined your best life otherwise.

Because it was already ruined

My first kid was an absolute nightmare as a baby. I was so sleep deprived, that I dreamt I murdered someone and for a week I was terrified and convinced that the police would arrest me soon. Then I remembered in another dream that it was just a dream. I still remember the sense of relief.

When you wake up and realize you’ve ruined your life not in a way that’s acute, bombastic, and irreversible but in a way that’s chronic, corrosive, and less reversible by the day.

My wife company is in a big crisis and in the past months all of her team was lay off, she was the only one who didn’t lost her job. They move her to a team where she have no experience and is juggling trying to learn while having to respond in things she never did before. Im having nightmares of she being fired, can’t even imagine the stress she is in right now.

I saw them back to back too, but the best part is I literally just woke up. It’s all Ruleated.