It’s difficult, I’m not going to lie. You can try looking for someone who does DBT, that’s where I found someone to help me.
DBT is good for getting to grips with the anger and urges.
But I hear you. I now live in a place where no one gives a fuck about you and I’ve not found a therapist who is competent or even pretends to give a fuck about you. So I’ve just given up.
You sound a bit like me a few years ago. Chronic loneliness and BPD was awful.
You should try see if you can get a decent therapist. Even if it’s just online in a different country.
i tried doing that (findinga therapist) when i had the energy a couple days ago. i walked away from that failure with new levels of frustration.
i have learned that any efforts to improve my situation is paid back two fold in depression and urges. the harder i try the worse it gets
It’s difficult, I’m not going to lie. You can try looking for someone who does DBT, that’s where I found someone to help me. DBT is good for getting to grips with the anger and urges.
But I hear you. I now live in a place where no one gives a fuck about you and I’ve not found a therapist who is competent or even pretends to give a fuck about you. So I’ve just given up.