I met my internet best friend this summer and I think that’s how she felt about me.

We had an okay time together but our friendship doesn’t feel the same anymore (in a bad way) and it’s 100% my fault because I was agressively insecure all the time. I was meeting someone from the internet for the very first time and it was also the very first time I left my country completely on my own.

However, that trip and meetup changed me a lot for the better. I feel like I matured a lot after that.

I hope she will forgive me and give me a second chance. I will also very much understand if she doesn’t.

Edit (Oct 24 2025): I told her my feelings in July and she said that she has no desire to continue our friendship and I haven’t talked to her since.

Years and years ago, I was really active on a forum, and one of the members did this world trip, couch surfing with different members of the forum and seeing the world. She and I weren’t good friends. In fact, she irritated me a bit, nothing in particular, just… Didn’t vibe. At all. But a leg of her trip was taking through my state, and she needed a place to crash, so I said fuck it, sure.

She stayed with her best friend from the forum in Boston, and it was a complete bust. They didn’t get along, Boston friend found her irritating, grating, and overwhelmingly boring.

Then she got to my place, and I made a new best friend. We got along so well she stayed an extra 2 days, and we had a fucking blast.

Irl/online can be a major difference, one from the other