Edit 2: @HornyMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone now!

Edit 3: not again…

I’m sorry… I think it’s me who triggered this by worrying about her so much (I won’t why but it’s not life-threatening) I messaged her on Lemmy (she’s not online on Matrix), making her open a chat which we last used…

CW: self-harm

…when she had suicidal thoughts and as the police suggested I pretended to want to come so I could make them do a wellness check… ultimately did make her less willing to die but not nice of me

At least nobody (not even the police, who didn’t ask for her username) but me (who she accidentally sent her name to) knows her real name in connection with the Lemmy and Matrix accounts, so she technically wasn’t doxxed; the police didn’t tell me the address they found in their database of course.

By the way, the police here is generally nice, if incompetent at times, and would use Miisha’s legal (female) name. It’s not like I sent a SWAT team.

Edit: Miisha insists this was not why she deleted her account. It’s clear she was already in distress* so I’d say I wasn’t the only factor but given the timing, it was probably the last straw

* Edit: this is the situation in question

So yeah, @Miisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone saw a sad chat, didn’t want to see it ever again and went the way of @AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone :( at least her posts and comments are still visible

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    This isn’t because of you. This has nothing to do with what you did, even tho it was mean.

    It’s because of me. My pretentious support of women’s rights while spewing blatant misogyny, erasing the experiences of non-trans gender-nonconforming people, spreading right-wing propaganda, absolutely annoying people who just want clean and readable feeds, basically forcing my obnoxious personality into every nook and cranny of this place. It’s all on me.

    So sorry, but it’s better this way. Being overdramatic is just my style so just writing this is proof of my extreme arrogance. I enjoyed my time here. Thanks you all.

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      Hey I know we don’t know each other but from everything I’ve seen from your posts I think you’re wonderful and are being too harsh on yourself. Transfems are regularly pressured into silencing themselves and to make themselves smaller for other people’s comfort. I hope things get better for you and that you can experience more moments of joy like you brought to us with your presence.

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      Hey girl, I’m just a random soul lurking around without posting (this is actually my first comment here) but I wanted to say that I really enjoyed your posts.

      I know life can be a bitch and everything can seem dark. I just wanted to put my little stone here and say that a random trans girl likes what you did, the joy you bring here and maybe a little touch of chaos too ;)

      Be yourself, that’s the most important and take all the time you need to feel better!

      Love from a stranger <3

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      NOOOOOOOO

      Nah but for real (just for your general fund of information) I’ve enjoyed all your posts; your memes bang, and I hope you’re doing alright. Truly, if people on Lemmy wanted something sanitized, then they should’ve stayed in the padded, corporate white walls of Reddit, and if someone doesn’t like your content, then they can damn well block you. It’s barely even an inconvenience.

      It isn’t obnoxious for you to live your truth, nor to post about it. It isn’t arrogant to be known, nor to be missed, which you will be.

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      Misha, sis. I wish I could lift this veil in front of your eyes and make you see how much life and humanity you breath into the community. People who want clean and readable feeds can go fly a kite, this isn’t a billionaire-owned newsroom. This is a place shock full of queer, messy, flawed, amazing, radiant people and there’s a seat with your name on it. I hope I’ll see you wreck this feed silly many times again. Whatever you ultimately decide, take care of yourself.

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      Everyone enjoys you here, Miisha. I’m glad this trouble in your life right now* is not as serious as I thought and I hope you’ll be back doing what folks loved you for. You don’t need to post that often either: do what’s comfortable and sustainable.

      * Edit: this is the situation in question

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      Hi Miisha,

      You are loved here. Its ok, you have done nothing wrong. Its ok. Its ok. Its ok.

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      Hey, love, I barely know you, but I wanted to let you know that my impressions of you have been nothing but positive.

      Now stop bein so mean to our friend (you) ❤️

      come back if/when you are ready, but if it isn’t good for your mental health, please prioritize and take care of yourself.

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      Hey fuck off.

      My pretentious support of women’s rights while spewing blatant misogyny, erasing the experiences of non-trans gender-nonconforming people, spreading right-wing propaganda, absolutely annoying people who just want clean and readable feeds, basically forcing my obnoxious personality into every nook and cranny of this place.

      That’s not what Miisha was doing.

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        I will. Sorry Velma. You were honestly great and super kind to me. Sorry for ruining it like I always do…

        If it wasn’t clear, this is me. This is my old account. Sorry for being me

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          If it wasn’t clear, this is me. This is my old account. Sorry for being me

          Oh babes! Goodness gracious, no, don’t be sorry.

          You didn’t ruin anything. I wish you’d stick around.

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          Wait, wait, wait…maybe I misunderstood your comment. It read like you were making fun of Miisha there. What’s up with this?

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              Her self-deprecating talk really had me thinking it was someone actually making fun of and being relieved she was gone.

              I saw the correction from her, but thank you so much for letting me know.

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      Miisha I dont know you, but, through seeing your interactions with others and your amazing meme dump. I even stalked your page for more memes. I promise, you are being too hard on yourself babes. We all love you here.

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      As someone currently learning more about herself, seeing your posts has been nothing but sunshine these last few days! The world is full of haters, I’m so sorry people are pushing you to think that you’ve been doing something wrong.

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      Miisha, we love you we care about you. Its a relief to hear you’re doing all right. I love your posts, and your self assessment is very off base. It may have been a little too much all at once, but we love having you here.

      Given the state of the world, I get very worried when trans people disappear without explanation. You don’t have to stay here if this community is not best for you, but if you leave please at least leave a note saying you’re fine. I don’t want to have to worry about you but I can’t help it.

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      Love, you’re in no way what you describe here, not to me and likely not to many others here.

      While I would gladly go to sleep to never wake up again, I enjoy interacting with you and your posts.

      Sis, you’re loved, you can get to your lovely otter for ears, hugs and paws.

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      Haters gonna hate tbh. Any time you put yourself out there. I enjoyed your manic posting spree. People burn accounts for worse reasons though so o7

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      Woah wtf? Sis you okay?

      I got no vibes of right wing propaganda (unless I missed something??). You’re just, for lack of a way to put it, blazingly, unapologetically heterosexual lol.

      Just bc most Lemmy posters lean LGB, doesn’t mean you sharing your POV is an offense :( from what I’ve seen you’ve been nothing but super sweet and refreshingly candid. You’re not obligated to stay here ofc but I do hope you find some joy whatever you decide. Please don’t feel apologetic for being you! /gen /pos

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        She’s only been hateful towards herself, never anyone else. I think she’s in dire need of several IRL friends who shower her with affirming words so that she internalizes them, and shield her from potential hate from outside.

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      The internet can be a crappy place, and you gotta take care of you. All I ever saw was somebody trying to work on being the best self they could be. Hope you get there. We’re cheering for you.